My dear twin, i though you made an article about Batman begins ( is it you, i forgot ?) Anyway, i read that effectivelly in thi sversion of Batman, less humourous but full of something else: the rise and construction of a hero. Somehow, and batman is a good example, we could really identify and think, god - or whatever - i could be a hero!!!!!

 Well the only moment i felt hero was when i saved the life of the girl sitting next to me when i was in high scool, and the best moment i spend being a hero is after watching a hero movie, which original soundtract is almost always very exiting and sharp, just rise you to the same state that this hero, wow gosh, and i wake up the morning, switch on my MP3 player, and play back the same music, walking on my way to work, i feel it, being a hero!

   Ok this is strange, may be dumb, i don't care that's the way i always did it. I feel the music with those kind of associations. That's why the music in one movie is oftenly very important to me, it should be able to rise at the right moment, the right scene!

  About super heros, the two side are very important, but in fact this is always true for realy super normal men too! Don't you think that we all got that kind of second face, dark one, darken by some of you thoughts you'll may be never expend out? Depends on you, really, youmay be realize this once!

  But i like the fate, this concept that something, sometime is made for you, waiting. Your faith is in the corner, could be good or bad! that's the problem, but we know the desteny of hero, they will turn, and be hero, they will save and destroy themselve (saving their or others life, destroying their real life). Like us, our secrets always leads to destroying something and rebuilding others, we have such dynamics in our life don't we? Don't we always think, i am doing the right thing, like the hero thinks  he is making justice, when he can in fact just hurt wrong people, just because our feelings like justice, are just subjective motions, you just apply it on others, but others phase's not essentially the same. Well hero is simply the hyperbole to show the subjective path we all could drive, choice to be made is according to your life, may be your fate, but it is still a choice on the desteny road; each time against someone you take a choice, the bad guy in Hero movie, when he is wide just says: "nobody's innocent", kind of true! Anyway Hero is omniscient, and have a semi-perfect judgement, so we think it is absolute judgement!

Then super power should be given to such people, with absolute super judgement, having the power only, just drive to nothing but desaster!

best regards,

Charles

Well i guess i might have thought i could be very rational that way! Yes now i am lying on my bed writing for more about my flowing out thoughts.

I don't there should be something special with tonight, it is like i could write a whole book, all my single neurons express a word, that makes billions of them ahhhhhhhh!!!

The secondary problem is that walking on my way to my dorm i was thinking, "shit i should shut down my head right now, i know i cannot think twice the sameway all the magestuous things i am saying alone in my head, and no ones hears it, they will never know! what a waste of ideas and so... I should try to write it right away" there i am!

I know there is not much consistency in my thoughts since i am trying to say the first thing in my head because of that fear to loose it, but i think much faster than my memory memorize ^^. Shame on me i made so much study i could bear that, no i can again this is a brain disoder of mine, at least i take a guess, before you do so!

Well something that could be great for you reading these stuffs is that if you had the right intonation and expression of my face thinking the way i could tell it, you might be able to say: i am reading in Charles' mind! Yes you did, and i because you realize it is messy, you will understand that you cannot understand me better that i do, because i am still not sure of i am thinking (we got a jet-thought-ga here).

Ok one warning i was thinking about, always on my way to dorm, was that the trackback provided on my blog will probably never be used, since i gor a damm way of thinking to link them and extract anysense of organization, will take so much time, equivalent to an eternal self psychotherapy, i won't ever do it, you dear reader, i shoul love you, but you should read all the bullshit i am about to tell on myself... Run away from this blog but don't forget that i could be as close to you as your twin (twin twin!), but in case of differences it is always usefull to see opposite point of view if you are an open minded banana, like me!

I know another thing about my self, but yet not clear enough: when is it the right time to write something? Well if i always do like i am doing now, you probably get mad at reading a mad guy confession, so sometime there will be great deep reflection, when spontaneity will dominate in nights like today ( 4h03 am) ! But i will start to write sufficiently inspired or chocked by a "whatever event" - i am sorry to say that the right english does not come to me naturally, if you have it?-  and i will stop by end of strength, of inspiration or simply death.

best regards,

Charles

PS: i am seriously disturb, am i not?

Hi dear all!

I really don't know why but suddenly i decided talk about something else than this week end, which was good, but not good enough!

I am on something reading that book from a woman who after loosing her marriage, became Ph. D. (Doctor level) in Linguistic and wrote a book. The title of this book really inspired me at the sight, when i went to the gangnam kyobo (강남 교보), a very famous librairy in Seoul, looking for another book. "That's not what i meant", i would say it sounds like a very common topic but i found out i did not really understood by myself some points she just stressed up in her book. Well, yes i did fight , several times, may be more, with the person i love, and i, we never really understood what kind of communication problem was underliying. I guess you too are aware now of what i am saying, since you could have cope the same sitation, and knowing that the very beginning of the books just says: "you will learn in this book how to use linguistic to rescue your miscommunication in all kinds of relationship you could deal with". Well i thought, "god-or whatever- damm my little franchy ass, if i spend 10 000 won (~7 euros ) on this little book, i would be the right King for my own Queen".

Allright, the thing is that this book really provides evidences and solution, to be aware of the way you're talking to your fellows, fellows! And it is not as magic as it could be, but full of truth you could have missed even during an entire life -time. In brief i will keep it close to my bed, so that after beeing married, having children, if i would be asked by my wife to buy strawberries in the middle of the night, let's say 4 am, i will be able to stay as kind as i was when i first met her and say: "but honey, don't you prefer cherry, i know a very good shop open at that time?" Don't misunderstand there is not an ironic speaking, i will go for these strawberries with the perfect will of doing it!! (선재, 착한 재주재, this is just my Korean name, the kind genius, ^^ i did not make it personnally, true!)

Well if you don't get my point, that's ok i mean, no one has to be kind with his wife in the middle of the night for a troubling desire of eating her favorite juicy fruit! But i am able to do that, and i am able to say WTFas well(What the Fuck!!) !!! However the second possibility should be definitively erased of my mind!

Thinking about this,  and through the intermediare conclusion of the author of my current book (Deborah Tannen), i will say this movie, slidding doors (remember guyneth paltrow having two kinds of perspective for her life entering or not a train) could have been, slidding words!! I mean think that just a word, well said or misinterpreted could change your whole life, god- or whatever- damm again my little firm frenchy ass, i should watch up more carefully what i am saying to everyone!!

Anyway, i guess from now you got my point, relationship are not just a matter of being yourself and expending the discussion only according to your own rules of communication, but it should be done with some real involment and attention just because as human we are all beating in a common way, but we are rarely, on the same phase!! Then think anout it: imagine one of the best discussion you had with a friend or anyone else, you had this such in a perfect agreement together, reponding clearly and straight away to any jokes, irony, and body signs, that you could send to each other; imagine just this so great situation of prefect comprehension and perfect satisfaction of understanding someone and beeing perfectly understand, even if in fact you are very different people! Then Think about this situation you meet someone, you knew before or not, and all your discussion just always end up in an unconfortable blank or fake smile, hard and enforced laugh, in this case you just almost feel disgust by the things you are saying, and you also feel saying nothing interesting nor feel interested by anything coming from the other side!

Then now which one will you choose? Having great conversation each time you can have one or just escape discussion just because you know it will finish in couple of insults or hyprocrite hope to see you soon (don't you ever think to see me again F.. Bast..)?? I don't know, for my defence i would say this is a point of view, then take it as a story rather than an advise, everything writen here should not be able to save your life except if you are really interested to do so!

     All parents say to their children: don't believe any stranger you will meet, then i am still a stranger for you, so stay suspicious about what i am saying, it is like a candy in the middle of the stranger's hand, looks delicious but is it a trap??

best regards,

Charles. 

Wow, i had a very nice spleep last night! How about you? I mean i usually do not sleep such long and such early so i feel like a baby reborn.

My habbits are more like sleeping around 4h am or more, remember i live in Korea so i have several reasons to sustain my awake time (i will explain), and then i have to wake up before 10h am because of class research meeting or whatever, but i have to!

Korea is one of these perfect country made to live at night, many things are still open after midnight and above many restaurants (and stay so cheap by the way). Recently i had a meal around 2h am with a friend drinking soju-소주 (the equivalent to japaneese sake, except the very bad taste, which is becoming good to me, oh sorry mom i am getting older!), with this famous baverage made to spin out your head, we had a Samgyuop Sal 삼겹살 (三枚肉 litterally means 3 layers of fat, ok i know this doesn't sounds nice, but believe me, you have too, this is great!). Eating and drinking on the outside, enjoying this marvelous humid and very hot weather, i love so much.

The counter part of my day, is in my Lab, i got 2 Labs actualy! I may be sould explain these second life: the Lab life. Actually a laboratory is generally a place you drive experiments and your research, but in Korea the additional component is that it's part of your living place. My lab looks like a lab of course, but also loke a big room where you could eat, sleep, watch a movie, play computer, take your emails, and of course study. It is so confortable to me, to everyone in general speaking, that i could spend more than 12 hours a day in it! My both Labs looks the same in that sense, it is like a house (생활 生活 ).

So you would understand that when i wake up i don't feel bad going to work, since i could go anytime and do whatever i would like to, i like this part of the student life, the self management of you knowledge and of your lazyness!!